I am sorry you are experiencing pain right now. I would like to echo all of the great words that have come before this post. Just so glad you are still with us.
Yes, it is incredibly hard when there are not supports, but rather detriments in your home life. Rely on this "home" and the consultations with your doctor right along now.
We are all rooting for you, and want you to be sober and happy. Again, hang in there, and know that today is a new day. You deserve to be happy, and treated with respect. I am wishing you well. Hugs friend.