Welcome to SR Jessica :ghug3
That's not a question I can answer. It's one only you can answer.
I'll ask one question in return. When you start drinking, do you ever drink more than you mean to?
You say it was an eye opener? I'm guessing that you related to a lot of what people said. If you are an alcoholic, then no. No, you can't go back to being a 'social drinker'.
Sorry if that's a little blunt, but it's there.
You must have had worries about your drinking, and 'social drinkers' don't. If you're drinking is making you unhappy, if it's making you upset and anxious, and if you're going to AA or posting here, it sounds like it is.
There are two suggestions that you've probably heard. Try and quit for 90 days. If you can do that, and it's easy, then that's great, and you aren't an alcoholic.
The other one is to try some controlled drinking - start drinking and try and stop abruptly.
But labels aren't important. What matters is this. Do you want to be sober? And are you prepared to go to any lengths to achieve this?