Thanks everyone for your support. I am not currently in any program since it is a struggle for me to open up about any truly important aspects of my life, but after attempting to quit drinking several times completely on my own and failing miserably every time, I've come to realize I do need the support of others. Hence why I have reached out here. Even writing that first post was a huge step for me. I'm hoping that with each day it not only gets easier not to drink, but it also gets easier for me to be open and honest about my many imperfections.