I was also a binge drinker and wow Oinobares really hit the nail on the head describing the increased tolerance and those hangovers. How awful that life was. We all became slaves to it at some time, but there truly is a way out. Like Ghostlight said thinking through the drink is such a powerful tool. Our minds tend to romanticize alcohol and one of the keys is to take the power away from that romantic vision. I may think I want a few glasses of wine, but let's be honest when has that EVER happened? I'd drink a few bottles and pay dearly for it- mind, body and soul. Nothing romantic about that whatsoever.
You can do it. We're all here cheering you on!!