This is me too. Am 27, total binge drinker and currently feeling like rubbish as I type. Ashamed and embarrassed. There is no other way. I have to stop drinking. I can't spend another conversation with my BF talking about what I did last night. I'm lucky he's still here. But I can't moderate my drinking. Therefore I need to quit, just like a did with cigarette. It's taken a year of therapy to get to the point where I feel strong enough to say I'm going to stop drinking and actually feel like I might be able to do this.