Thank you English Garden, you hit it on the head of the nail hard.1. My 5 year old was emotionally traumatized as I couldnt give him any of my time while dealing with her and her disease. He needs my attention now. 2. Bi-Polar? She could be right at home in a psyche ward. 3. I am a severe codependent. I do need counseling. and probably anti stress medication. But Monday at 9am I begin the legal hassles and processes of either annulling or the big D. 4. I broke up with her 12 years ago because of her drug addiction and was left with enough residual anger that someone at a bar got hurt pretty bad and it scared me. I know I need therapy, the gym and the track as I am pretty GD pissed off right now, mostly at myself.