Tuesday nights
I used to dread this time of the week when I was with xABF. Tuesday was always a night "off" because I worked late. So he'd be free to drink without interruption (around me he always tried to hide/sneak it).
I'd always dread that 7 pm phone call I'd make to him after my meeting, knowing he'd probably be drunk. I'd fear the additional calls that night, hearing the alcohol in his voice. Often, I'd avoid his calls and the next day, saying I fell asleep early -- because I knew I wouldnt like what he said/how he sounded by 11 pm.
So while I'm tempted tonight to let myself feel "lonely" without him, I'm reminding myself I felt very lonely with him too.