Markus1

It's been over 24 hours since I've had a drink and I'm just bored and a little irratated, I guess it's because I'm used to being intoxicated almost all day.

One thing that is really bothering me though is my mother, who is a methadone addict. I went to my first AA meetings in months today, and she has been being so mean to me since I started talking about recovery and since I've stopped drinking. Today my stepfather drove me to a meeting, since he doesn't trust me to drive.

I have AA meeting sheets I told my mom and stepdad that I'd get signed to prove that I was at the meetings. But he still drove me, which I didn't really mind and didn't argue about.

But after the meeting and me arriving home I tell my mom that tomorrow when my stepdad is at work that I will be driving my car to a 4pm meeting. She said "no, I will drive you." But in the past when she has driven me she will take hours to pick me up once the meeting is done. So instead I told her that I would ride my bike, she still said no.

She is purposely making my attempt at sobriety very difficult. In a way I think she wants me to remain an alcoholic or a junkie so I can live at home and be her little errand boy. I started using in high school to make living with my mom and stepdad easier.

By the way, my stepdad is a psychiatrist and he took my pulse and asked how I felt earlier today, and I felt fine. He said if I get really sick to take some Campral, which I have in my medicine cabinet. He said Campral won't take the sickness away but it will help my brain function normal without alcohol. If I was really sick he would most likely help me.

I feel like I can't handle this and I almost want to cry. My mom is being very rude and calling my homosexual friend a ****** behind his back, to me. She's pointing out my past and talking crap. She used to give me money to buy me and her painkillers like 1 1/2 years ago. She's been supportive most of the time but she has major issues. Idk what to do sometimes.