UPDATE:
Okay guys. I've had a productive day and a productive afternoon. The first thing I did when I had my little bitch-fest late last night and this morning was do my meditation practice (the one I was telling you about). It immediately came into my mind to thank the guy I went out with last night. Although I really didn't enjoy his company, the actual activities were amazing. I also felt by thanking him, it might help him to break out of his self-absorbed malaise and there might be a human underneath it. I've already heard back from him, it didn't, but it made me feel good for having done it.
The second thing I did was I wrote again to that writing group I didn't get to be a part of to ask the organizer why. I got a meeting out of it and someone to read and help me fix up my work!
Unfortunately, I am still processing my divorce, so I also got a message from my XAH with comments about why did I ever leave him, and it's my fault our marriage didn't work and why aren't I with anyone, therefore I must want to be unhappy, blah, blah, blah. He completely pretends as if he was never drunk or high, vomitting on our futon, pissing in our closet, or obsessively visiting porn sites while doing mounds of coke!
Learn2Live, yes,this is the loss I feel. I have something to do between al-anon and my meditation group, work and various other responsibilities, but no one I can talk to when I have moments like I did this morning and last night.
So, yes, I was rude earlier, but we have our freak outs one way or another.
I'll think on some of your comments as I complete the day.