Try your own "scientific evidence" by working the steps of AA. That is where the real change takes place. When you are at a meeting, try to relate to another's story instead of finding the differences.
Have you read the big book? Have you read about any other program and embraced it? We have to work hard for our recovery or we might drink/drug again.
As intelligent as you are, you still mixed booze and benzos. Seriously?
I wish you well on staying stopped!