Dear 'Learntolive' - your words are so true...it is heartbreaking..when your man left you - was it to go back to drugs? Do you know the reason?? Is it really so true that even though they can proclaim to love us with their hearts and soul - that they can turn away? I know how you feel when you say 'you are the only thing between normality' - I panic as I am the one who supports H - I am the only person who can get him into rehab and talk to him openly about his addiction.... and I suppose this is now the challenge - to know when it is time to walk away.... my heart goes out to you too...