Originally Posted by
Dee74 
I think if you're drinking like you say you are, you need medical supervision.
If you're mixing benzos with that? You definitely need medical supervision.
It could be the ER, it could be your family Dr...whatever, but I recommend it.
I didn't see a Dr - my last home alone detox did not go well.
Have you thought about what your plans are for staying sober after detox?
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Actually, after my last detox I was firmly committed to staying sober. I've got an addiction doctor, I moved in with my parents (whom understand the problem and are very supportive), I set up some temporary obstructions to getting alcohol, got a psychologist, et cetera.
The relapse happened because the CEO of my company came into town from another country (I'm being intentionally vague) and ordered a very expensive bottle of wine. Given the language barriers and all of that, I didn't know how to say no. After several glasses of wine, my determination was whittled down.
Yeah, I know it's an excuse given that I felt pretty excited for a millisecond after he ordered it.
Today I talked with the most gossipy person at work and said that, "due to medicines, I can't drink... so it really stressed me out when ___ came". I also emailed the HR lady. Hopefully the word will spread that I should not be offered alcohol.
After one glass of wine I'm fine. After two? I'm still fine. Once it reaches a bottle, I'm done for the night -- all inhibitions are gone. I start to crave it.
Odd, yes? That's what happens when you mix benzos with alcohol, I guess. It's a very terrible combination that's difficult to understand until it's too late.
I'll update here after the appointment with my addiction specialist so that anyone else in a similar position finds a solution.
My best guess is that he'll say "go to detox again".
Too bad, because I'll get fired if I miss anymore work. I hope for outpatient detox, if detox is necessary.