can i just add also that im in the process of waiting for rehab and have been told to carry on drinking until i get there and its like bloody torture. when i was in denial i was fine drinking but since iv been told i have to drink as it can harm me to go cold turkey i just hate the stuff and it feels so daunting when i drink. be thankful you have reached the point of telling people you dont want to drink and take great pride in the fact as i truly cant wait to get to the point you have where i can tell people i cant drink and dont want to drink. i lost my friends long ago and im glad as after rehab it will hopefully open many doors to more friends who are there for me more than the drinking buddies i had