If you folks were not here.....
I know drinking and drugging last night has my mind screwed up.
I will regret this post so much.
I have read posts where I felt helpless to reach out and make that person better. Reach out with so much love they will not ever want to hurt themselves again.
I do not want to be that person you all help. I want to be the helper.
Helping myself is so FFFFFFFing hard.
Real it in i know.
Trust me I will get better.
Being sober is unique in that we have a better perspective on life than those that do not drink. Not better just different.
We understand and appreciate the little things.
Like walking strait lines. Able to touch our noses with out missing.
Ok... Sense of humor is back.... Ken is not far behind.
Love you all!