Welcome Tom88. While my DOC was alcohol, we are all facing the same thing, addiction. You know that you have a problem. The next thing that needs to be done? Don't pick up again. I know it sounds easier said than done, but it really is the ONLY step. Take it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute if you have too. You can do this, we are all doing this. This place is a great place for support.