I didn't see it for the longest time because I didn't know what to look for.
Then, when I did know what to look for, I cleverly hid the facts that were right before my eyes because I didn't want to believe it to be true, didn't want to admit that this man I fell in love with was doing what he was doing.
We can play tricks on ourselves so easily. Change is scary, even if it's a change for the better.