I'm afraid those of us here are beyond familiar with recovery. At least I am if repetition serves as a goalpost. At day 4 and given that it sounds as if your W/D is a tough one you probably have a few days to go but it should start to get better. I went the AA route the first time and found it helpful. It sounds as if you did as well. Probably everyone in the group will have relapsed or done something to be equally ashamed of. That is one of the benefits of AA. You are not alone. I also understand not wanting to go if you're sick but a pat on the back would help wouldn't it? Here's a cyber pat - pat, pat.