Thanks everyone. Very interesting posts. Just woke up day 2 and I feel really good physically. Having breakfast then going to work. I am open to meetings and would enjoy them but I don't think my gf would understand. Shes been with me through my worst and in her mind I am totally recovered from addiction. I don't do drugs and I go to work everyday so she wants to think all is well. I remember how awful it was for her emotions before. Its been years since I went to meetings and all that and if I went again I'm afraid it would bring her bad memories back. If I need to go I wil but I don't wanna rock the boat.
I went to online meetings before and I think that might be a better option...at least for now.