Originally Posted by
goog 
thanks everyone for your replies. I'm at day four and feeling stronger, I'm working through talking to my friends and family about how I'm going. I see myself thinking oh maybe I can cope with it, maybe I can go back I even had a bad day today and thought about it but I didn't do it. I didn't drink today and tomorrow I won't drink either but just one day at a time. I've got to go really, really, really slowly.
Old habits die hard I guess.
I think you are on the right track. If you don't have that first drink, you will be just fine.
Look for support in AA if you can, come back and post and read here (works wonders for me). Don't drink today ... that's your goal. Bad days are bound to happen, but alcohol will only make them worse, you already know that.