Wow, I wish I drank like that well no i don't because i would still be drinking. Make no reservation about drinking since you realize that you drink like that don't fool yourself anymore. Life is so much more real without the use of alcohol, no more buffer!
If you start feeling depressed come here and post or read, talk to somebody about it (preferably someone who understands and will listen), pray. It is good that you see this now and not years from now, God bless you and keep coming back!!!