Been trying to moderately drink here & there the past week or two. It's making me so angry cause it just doesn't feel like it used to. I feel almost scared of it. Of alcohol. I don't have that same euphoric feeling once that first drink goes down. It's like i'm drinking just to get it over with & get to the end result. Wasted.
Not wasted now but did have several drinks through the day (about 8...). I just wanted to check out, I was done. Even on a beautiful sunny day with my family, I felt completely depressed & alone. Sad.
