Looking for Help
I have joined this forum in 2010, but I have done nothing about my alcoholism, I am hurting the people around me and I desperately want to stop. I don't know who to talk to as I don't know if people understand. I don't drink every day and I can go for months at a time without an incident and then I just get so drunk I can't remember what I did or said. It is hurting my partner but he doesn't understand, he says people should just be able to have self control, I wish I did!
I feel lost and guilty and embarassed when i stuff up and I don't understand why? I can go out some nights and have one or maybe even two drinks and I'm find but then other nights I just go over the top. I keep saying I"m going to give up for a month or go on a health kick and I only ever last a week. How do you stop? How do you protect the people you care about how do you explain to them why you do this??? WHY do you do this???