I went to the ER for detox for the second time in my drinking career just over two weeks ago, and I am still scared about the bill and the fact that it may be a part of my record and effect insurance, etc. Frankly though, there was no way I wanted to risk any of the dangerous possibilities of withdrawal w/o medical assistance. And even after two days in the hospital, I still had a night of mortal terror and insanity when the Ativan wore off at home.
The most important thing is your life and health. Do whatever it takes to safeguard that, and all the rest will get worked out. At this point I have fully accepted that I am an alcoholic, and if the world can't get behind that, I don't care. *I* am behind it. I'll do what it takes, and what others who have similarly suffered and survived suggest as the best course of action.
Best wishes to you! Have courage!