Time2kickit,
Thanks for your post. Can totally identify w/ your fear and what you said. I've been abusing large doses of stimulants daily for over a year and for the 1st tIme today disclosed this to my therapist. It felt good to get out but I am also afraid of what withdrawal will feel like as I've experienced brief tastes of this when I've run out of meds. Which has physically left me feeling exhausted. I'm also scared about transitioning into inpatient treatment as my therapist recommended this to be the next step required for restoring my health. There's a lot of fear in me over the uncertainty of this process and also the certainty of what my future will be if I choose not to get help for my problem. Good luck, for neither 1 of us will this be easy but trust that it will be worth it! Walk away from the suffering!
Believe!
2thyownselfbtru