Weasel, I identify!
Some very important parts of my recovery took place while I was still using, like recognizing my addiction for what it was, researching sobriety, and coming to believe that it was worth doing, that I could do it and that I could live a life worth living.
I had a number of those "ah ha" moments, even when I was seriously messed up/wasted. Realizing that I didn't want to die, I just had no idea how to live.
Realizing the world wasn't doing anything to me, that I was doing this to myself. that came just a few days into getting clean.
I could not have gotten clean, let alone stayed clean, had I not had those insights/moments of truth.
Thank you SO much for sharing your recovery and insights with us. I am so thrilled by each victory and honest share here that keep me moving forward as well.