What you're feeling is completely normal, effortjoy. It's a huge adjustment to learn to live in a new way. The fake calmness that alcohol gives us is damaging. It's no way to live. We aren't really present in our daily lives, just phoning it in.
You will begin to feel better soon. You'll go through many phases as you heal and learn to live without getting numb. It's going to be worth it, we promise.