The first week is hell EJ, the worst, it's not gonna be this hard always. It consumes you and uses up every inch of will power. Whitching hour with kids is hell initially without booze. I'd power through with a strong coffee and chocolate. And keep eating as I never liked booze on a full stomach. Every week was easier till the month mark for me. Then it sort of felt more normal to not drink. I get pleasure from the evenings sober now. There are still hard times as I'm only at 5 weeks but I know the 3 month mark I'll feel even more 'normal' with out a drink in me. All the best hon, keep going, u have to! The only way out is through! X