Originally Posted by
Jazzman 
Hey peach, not sure what to say but man I feel for you. Mel had an effect on me that was beyond reason so I can relate. I did some stupid things. I'll never forgive myself for the exposure to toxicity risk I put my kids at.
Wow... that would be a big motivator for me.
It's now my main motivation since it killed me to see my strong, well put together distinguished Dad crying to me.
I do not want my parents to die without seeing me happy.
I was happy many years ago with my ex of 11 yrs. Then life came crashing down.....
Not sure how I'll heal this time.....I feel dead...really