All fixed now. ^^
Welcome to our forum. My son has been lost in addiction for many years now and I too hate the disease, and pray every day that he finds a better path.
Meetings helped me find my balance again. I couldn't fix him but I could no longer live in his dark world. Al-anon, Nar-anon and CoDA are three similar fellowships that have helped many of us cope with having addicted loved ones.
Glad you joined us, take a read around and you will see that you are not alone. We're all walking with you here.
Hugs