I'm glad that you've been able to feel a sense of calm. The last while has been really tough for you and I know that the chaos was unbearable.
I can't believe that it has already been a month.....I know that you must have a huge range of emotions. My situation is different in that I have separated from my husband but I'm still surprised how I can have such a swing of feelings. But....there is a lot to be said for calm.
Gentle hugs....