How do you turn off your feelings? How do you just stop caring?
When I've been faced with this type of betrayal the ONLY thing that makes me feel better EVER is going No Contact (NC) with the betrayer.
Oh I go back, sure. I go back and try it again I'm desperate for that fix. Maybe he'll magically leave her and love me again. I also go back when I've been happy for so long without him that I forget I'm powerless over that madness and think I'm bullet-proof.
Each time, it jacks me up horrible. I'm talking fetal position weeping and gnashing my teeth.
Here, take a gander at this one, although there is a legion of us all singing your song.
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...rtner-now.html
Like my wise sister once told me, when I called her and said, what the **** is wrong with me??
There is nothing wrong with you, except you forgot Creator is your eternal partner. That's why there are thousands of us; to remind each other.