OK, sorry for the interruption, but I just have to address this.....
Hey hypochondriac.....you wrote, "...Now I feel guilty because I haven't relapsed (yet!) and maybe I'm not an alcoholic because I feel like I will never drink again, but then people tell me if I am an alcoholic I will. It's all very depressing..."
I don't know who's telling you this: "people tell me if I am an alcoholic I will (re: drink again)." Whoever 'they' are, IGNORE them!!!! They know NOT of which they speak.
Yes, many alcoholics relapse and return to drinking, but many do NOT. So, stick with the winners (the ones who do NOT).
(o:
NoelleR