Hey highbottom ----
Someone earlier wrote (paraphrased here) that only you can decide (diagnose) whether you're an alcoholic or not; nobody else.....and this is absolutely true.
Back in the day (25+ years ago, there-abouts), there was a small pamphlet with a self-diagnosing test one could take to decide if one was an alcoholic or not. This pamphlet was called 'The 20 Questions.'
Since that time, changes and updates have been done---more/different questions; fewer questions.....I've always found the originals to be best; maybe they will help you answer your questions; so here goes...................:
1. Do you lose time from work due to drinking?
2. Is drinking making your home life unhappy?
3. Do you drink because you are shy with other people?
4. Is drinking affecting your reputation?
5. Have you ever felt remorse after drinking?
6. Have you gotten into financial difficulties as a result of drinking?
7. Do you turn to lower companions and an inferior environment when drinking?
8. Does your drinking make you careless of your family's welfare?
9. Has your ambition decreased since drinking?
10. Do you crave a drink at a definite time daily?
11. Do you want a drink the next morning?
12. Does drinking cause you to have difficulty in sleeping?
13. Has your efficiency decreased since drinking?
14. Is drinking jeopardizing your job or business?
15. Do you drink to escape from worries or trouble?
16. Do you drink alone?
17. Have you ever had a complete loss of memory as a result of drinking?
18. Has your physician ever treated you for drinking?
19. Do you drink to build up your self-confidence?
20. Have you ever been to a hospital or institution on account of drinking?
To find out how you did, count your "YES" answers.
If you answered YES to one of the questions, this is a warning that you may be an alcoholic.
If you answered YES to any two, there's a good chance that you are an alcoholic.
If you answered YES to three or more, you are definitely an alcoholic.
Source: The Twenty Questions: Are You An Alcoholic? was developed in the 1930s by Dr. Robert Seliger, Department of Psychiatry, Johns Hopkins Hospital, and intended as a self-assessment questionnaire to determine the extent of one's alcohol abuse.
I hope this helps you out...............
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NoelleR