What I would consider is calling the local AA office and asking someone to come out and speak with you about AA. See how that goes. If you feel comfortable with that person, perhaps ask to speak with them again to get to know um better. At some point ask if its ok to go to a meeting with them. Tell them what your afraid of (speaking or being asked a question, or whatever). They can then help you with whatever it is. This makes it far easier (though still not altogether painless). So many folks have your same fear. The people at the meetings are typically very sensitive to new people. Let us know how it goes.