Welcome to a great place for support SomebodyElse. You are not in this alone x
I would have another chat with your husband..he does not need to understand but he needs to be supportive and not actively encourage you to drink. People who do that to me are likely to find themselves off my xmas card list...
If you don't see yourself going to AA try AVRT, no meetings required. I started off with that and it really really helped. And join the Class of June on this forum. This is a great place for support and I'm sure you'll find a lot of help here x