What do you mean by 12 step calls? I kind of have a fear of calling people, too. heh.. I know I'm difficult.
Florence, I go to weekly therapy and talk deeply with my therapist. I do research about my condition online. I take medications and have been for years. I also come here and to another site. I try whatever the doctors tell me to try. I have treatment resistant depression and I'm really hard on myself. I'm really trying to get better, honest.