I feel sad, lonely, anxious, and depressed. I hate feeling like this.
If I was alone drinking on a night feeling like this I be would sloppy and self-destructive. I would drink almost a whole bottle of wine. I might add water to the bottle to make it look less suspicious, if I was feeling guilty. I might cut myself or cry or make myself throw up. Or I might just glaze over and fall asleep. I'd wake up feeling worse tomorrow.
Drinking does not solve problems. Sometimes you just have to sit through the discomfort and be patient.