I agree with Buffalo, the silver lining here is that your kids WILL remember that you were a good mom. Mine does, she tells me all the time.
And I remember when she came down with Swine Flu during that outbreak & my never-sick, bouncy, bright girl was so sick for so many days that I was truly scared & AH was off god-knows-where while I prayed & cried & worried all alone. Then again when she had a relapse 2 weeks later. Then again 6 months later when I came down with viral pneumonia & my DD had to step up & take care of me. At 5 yrs old.
These are the kind of things that, even now when we're in a better place, I have a lot of anger & disgust over.
But my daughter reminds me ALL THE TIME that she loves me & that I'm a great mom & she shows it in so many, many little ways. I hope your little one is better today & showers you in smiles & laughter.