For some reason, this makes me feel better about my addiction. Cus I don't want to know that I'm consciously making this choice to drink. Not knowing what is making me drink, is hellish enough. I can't be ok with people losing families, loved ones, neglect children, become homless or die, for the sake of a drink/hit. Something clearly isn't right within our brain. No person wants this for themselves, loved ones or family.
What the hell is wrong with us? Why are there addicts in the world? What makes us become this? What makes people die from this? What makes people neglect and continuously hurt the people they love?
Please...tell me there some science behind it! Tell me its not something Im doing on purpose.