Sorry, but our A's just have a knack for making us feel like dirt. It might help to imagine him saying something stupid(quack quack) before answering the phone, and therefore less tempted to take his call?
I think my heart is ripped out hourly, and I don't remember a day yet this year when I didn't cry. Perhaps you are sad because you are grieving- I mourn the loss of the man I fell in love with, and all our dreams every day. The good news is, so far, my heart hasn't actually broken into pieces. That would be some thread...