In my marriage of 25 yrs, I was the alcoholic.
8 yrs. into the marriage, family stepped in with
an intervention where I got sober 8-11-90.
As the alcoholic wife and mother of a normal
husband and kids, I longed for understanding,
communication, fun, romance, simple connection.
After my awesome talented loving kids grew
and went on with their young adult lives leaving
my husband and I alone to continue with our
lives, for me it always seemed awkward. I thought
that after the kids left that our marriage would
become stronger on our next leg of our marriage
together, stronger, loving, romantic till death due
us part.
Sadly, it didnt. We did go out to eat, hold hands,
and watch tv, but for me their always seemed like
something was missing. So we did a brief counciling
which didnt last.
My husband went on with his daily life, work, staying
strong in the kids and his own family's life, and I always
felt like an outsider, not strong or even connected with
either sides of the family orgin, no friends, just mainly
isolating, simple jobs, going to the park to commune
with nature, pray, jog, walk, and most of all stay strong
in my recovery the best I could .
I longed to return to my hometown of Baton Rouge
which saddened me soooo much because I left to
relocate to Houston so our kids could have more
opportunities to grow and mature in which they did
by leaps and bounds. It was 10 yrs of unhappiness
deep within my soul even tho i tried to be supportive
of my little family.
Anyway, after yrs of tears and prayers, I returned
to Baton Rouge in '06 on a new job and thus my
little marriage of 25 yrs ended mutually. Very calm
and as was to be.
Today, im remarried 3yrs now happier than I have
ever been in my life. 21 yrs sober and extremely
grateful and full of blessings from Above.
There are no regrets in how my life has ended up
because I have accepted that my HP had and still
has a plan for me and as long as I put first things
first, the most important thing in my life first then
I will be taken care of. And so far I have been as I
continue to grow and change in my recovery journey
of a lifetime.
