thinking of you, nigel. i assume you posted because you wanted some feedback on this idea. looks like most people here (myself included) think it's not a great one. obviously, it's your choice, though i do think you should re-read some of your previous posts about how miserable you were feeling. i'd imagine just about anything would be better than feeling like that again.
at least give yourself a solid chance at sobriety, whatever you do. you're worth it.