This lie must be seriously eating at you, because you have created 5 threads talking about this one "small slip" as you say. You already know it's wrong and no matter how many times you post about or mention it, it will still be wrong. You're not going to convince anybody to support you, not anybody who is really working the program of AA that is. I don't think you really want sobriety, I think you want the perception of being sober.
To me being sober means everything. If I pick up, I will die. It doesn't matter if anyone knows how much time I have, it matters that I know. When you start working this program for yourself and stop putting on a show, then you will achieve sobriety. Until then I am afraid, you are destined to have many "small slips". Hopefully the next one won't kill, but you never know.