Hey there,
I myself started boosing so heavy in college because it would stop the panic attacks and I could live "normally". I thought I was going to lose my mind, I could not sleep ( when I say can not sleep I mean I would sleep for four hours and wake up 20 times) . I lost a ton of weight... I am 6"3 and I weighed 138 pounds at the time. The doctor put me on lexapro which had horrible side effects for 2 weeks but after that I started to feel better. I started forcing myself to eat even if I got sick and started working out and my life turned around from there.