I choose stay sober by turning my will over to God and submitting to the program of action. Anytime my free will kicks in I try to surrender it back to God.
A moment of freedom for me was when I realized God is everything or nothing it. Those aren't my words but it is my experience. My willingness, my motivation to inventory and help others are ALL the grace of God. When I realize of myself I am nothing, my life has nothing to do with staying away from the first drink but drawing closer to God.
So my choice to stay sober and work the program is ultimately from the higher power.