Zorah, I take Lamectol as well. Because it is a mood stabilizer, it tends to level you in one spot, (not necessarily a pleasant spot), and then they typically add something to it to treat the depression etc. Mood stabilizers are especially helpful in this way because it gives them a starting point and helps your chemistry not flip up and down when ever it wants to.
I swear it gets better. Just keep reminding yourself that it might suck ass right now, but it won't suck forever. The process is painful, but the result is well worth it if it helps you lead a full healthy life.