Yep, it's all in our heads. I was the same way and the same with smoking. Clean livin during the pregnancies, no problem. I didn't have a choice, in my mind. It wasn't an option. Once it became an option..well...you know the rest. Yes, I would have nursed longer had I not been trying to include drinking in there somewhere, so I hear ya. When you stopped for your pregnancy, was the plan to never drink again? Cuz if not, that would explain why you couldn't wait to drink after 9 months. It DOES get easier..hang in there!!!
