BPB -
I am currently an AA'er - after 2 years of railing against the program - I fought it tooth and nail. I am not preaching AA here - but I will say that I tried for two years on my own to sober up - and I couldn't do it alone. I live in a big city and finally found a room or two that I could stomach. For me the AA meetings are a way to keep it at the front of my mind that I CAN'T drink - I make it a point to make a meeting every day whether I like it or not - I think the act of making something else more important than drinking is the key - could be AA - or the gym - or volunteering - or whatever - it's the obligation for me more than anything. When I was drinking I wasn't accountable for ANYTHING.
I hope you find something that works for you
Again - I AM NOT preaching AA
