OK, so you didn't like AA. You aren't the only one to feel that way, and many of those who did feel as you changed their minds, went back in 'the rooms and are now securely and serenely sober.
I am not an AA person, and used other tools and methods to make it possible for me to be securely sober. I think what is most important is your commitment to never take a drink again, not a drop, not a sniff. This leaves it up to you to make that decision as easy as possible, to allow you to see your way through each moment without that stuff. I hope you make that choice, and look until you find what you need to live easily with that choice.