Originally Posted by
bronzepinkblue 
I love alcohol or, more specifically, I love it until I hate it. Once upon a time it calmed me down but that seems like a billion years ago. Now, I'm through the roof when I drink. WHO DOES THAT?!
Alcoholics...That's who. Welcome to SR bronzepinkblue....I won't preach to you about AA...But I will tell you this problem we have does not get better with time....I'm living proof of that...Lucky to be living proof. If I were you I wouldn't worry about what you don't want to do and put some serious thought into what you do want to do. Have you tried any other programs or methods?...Rational Recovery?...AVRT?...SMART?....Lifering?...Maybe you can just use this site for support....I don't know. But I would look into something.